Relief!

15 months old today and instead of posting cute pictures and telling all about Jack's personality and developments I am preparing things for an unexpected surgery tomorrow.  After receiving three shots for his ear infections and showing no improvements, we were sent directly to an ENT today.  One look at his ears and he was scheduled for an "emergency" surgery tomorrow to receive tubes.  He is showing signs of hearing loss, especially in his left ear, and tests showed that his ear drum is not performing as it should.  They stuck a small instrument in his ear to test his ear drum.  You look for a "peak" or "mountain" on the screen to show normal, healthy ear drums.  Jack's showed a flat line.  There is so much thick fluid in his ears that his drums cannot vibrate as they should.  He can definitely hear, but things probably sound pretty muffled and the pressure is very painful.  The doctors are confident that once the fluid is drained, his hearing will prove to be normal.  So we are off at 5 am for a 7:45 surgery.  I am a nervous, anxious mom but so very grateful that he will finally have some relief.  He is sleep deprived but still happy and sweet.  Nights continue to be a battle and after three sleepless nights, I am thankful to see a a light at the end of the tunnel.  I could really stress out if I allowed myself to think about all I have to do and haven't done due to three days at the doctor's office and no sleep.  My youngest sister is getting married Saturday and I still have no shoes, haven't picked up my dress from being altered, seriously need a pedicure and a spray tan and have nothing to wear to the rehearsal dinner (where I am expected to give a toast as well).  Oh yeah, and tomorrow is Jody's birthday and let's just say I am not prepared.  So I am trying to remain calm and am keeping my focus on my little man.  I pray he feels instant relief and can rest well and forget about earaches forever. So I will postpone his 15 month post until a little later when I can gush about how perfect he is.  I love, love, love this little boy...

This is how my little one has looked all week...

 But when I say smile, he still gives me his best, sick or not.  That's my Jack.